'La Pute

this random dude/chick added me on facebook. we have no mutual friends, and we don't even share the same country/region.

he added me and sent me a fb message:

didn't know what 'la pute' meant, and went to google it. and apparently it means whore. -.- thought it might mean sth nice like pretty somemore lor. fucker.

showed A what that asshole sent me and i replied this:

LOL. the knn ccb blabla parts were added by A cause he said that we should show some other languages. HAHA. wanted to add more but A actually reminded me about KARMA. omg.

like he's the one who's always scolding others who don't deserve it and now he's all about karma? nonsense. ha.

had another tiff with him. and he's got me all riled up. hope things will be okay though.


kay off! tata.


xoxo

'Crabs bite.

i should really start taking more photos to post up on this space of mine. it's becoming as barren as a woman after menopause.

okay that's kinda mean. >: but you get my point.

i'm kinda worrying for my career as a student in MDIS. :O !!!!!

on a side note: went to eat crabs with A and Jialuo. it was goooooooood. especially the butter one. my crab shells were like super little cause i kept eating the shells even though A told me not to. cause supposedly it's unhealthy? but i can't figure out why it's unhealthy. okay maybe i should google. cause i've always assumed that shells were always filled with protein or some shit like that. -.-

kay my boyfriend is missing. asshole. byebye hehe.



xoxo

'Straight from the heart.

just gonna stand there and watch me burn, 
but that's all right because i like the way it hurts,
just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
but that's all right because i love the way you lie, i love the way you lie.

 don't quite understand how someone can love how their lover lies, cause it's one of the worst things to feel, having your trust ripped to pieces bit by bit.

slipping away, and you try to grab hold but you grasp something that's the end of your relationship and yet you can't find the strength to let it go and the words to make love stay.

not being able to understand, what went wrong, and to be kept in the dark. little hurts more than finding out the ugly truth, and the green eyed monster rearing it's head and yet you can't do anything to stop it cause you're powerless.

living your life in misery without the person, or move on and find new happiness? the worst thing is that the decision might be to be miserable with the person, than happy without, cause you can't imagine doing without. not ever.

sometimes bearing your soul can be the hardest thing to do, especially to someone who might take your heart and break it into little little pieces. being vulnerable scares me the most, and yet you'd choose to do it every single time, in the hopes that he/she would finally understand what you're going through, and how his/her actions are killing you.

each time you'd want to hear how he/she felt, and there'd be nothing but stone cold silence, or a riddle of words that'll leave you feeling more confused than ever. how are you supposed to know if he/she doesn't speak? probably you'd hate to ask and pry but otherwise you'll never know.

and the thing you're risking your happiness for is the what if. the 'what-if' that happens whenever you wanna walk away. 'what if i'm making the biggest mistake of my life by walking away from the person who knows me the best?' and then you stop.

just watch me burn, baby.

'Hey mr

made a meal for A and his campmate. poor innocent friend of his had to eat my linguine with white cream sauce plus mushrooms with cheese sausage plus campbell soup.

but it was not bad, if i say so myself.

been watching gossip girl season 3 and i'm becoming immersed in it as usual. i've no idea why i tend to get too caught up in books/shows, and becoming like them.

wonder why there can be so so many secrets kept in gossip girl! like..... urg. head hurts just watching it some times. totally hate how people can be so secretive? or maybe that's just me.

bet i wouldn't last a day in gossip girl world. tho it'd be damn cool to be able to spend that much.

kay rambling bye!


xoxo

ps: andB? i don't know if handcuffs are a good idea for a first date. 

HAHAHA

'distance

am feeling a tad weird, like i'm readjusting to something that i've been living without. and apparently i have been.

wd says i'm feeling weird because i'm insecure? and maybe i am. but i'd rather be feeling this way than all up in bliss and not knowing a thing. add that one issue to the pile of 'joh's issues' then.

thing is, i heard all that you've to say, that things aren't necessarily how they are, but face the fact baby, it's like butter and margarine cause technically things are kinda the same. (okay that sounded better in my head)

we've agreed that it's like a can't live with can't live without kinda thing. we get irritated and quarrelsome when we're together but when we're apart it's like there's a part of us missing.

i just need that..... assurance. you know? that no one else can ever take this away.

but then again, sometimes i wonder if we aren't just throwing this down the drain ourselves.

urg i hate relationships.

sheldon cooper ftw!!!!! totally love him. hehe



xoxo

ps: banned from clubs/pubs/thai discos. you'll never catch me sucker.