no matter what

"your day must be full of sunshine"

ssffff

happy birthday darren goh! you're finally seventeen!

but on another note.....

i miss you. no, not darren of course. -..-

school awaits.


xoxo
if i ain't got you.

just hold our love in your arm

"let's all keep the faith"

merry christmas fuckers! heeeee. at liangjie's, and ya. cause tomorrow's his birthday, and i really feel like bathing. oh man.

sucks when i forgot to bring everything. like facial wash and everything, but i did bring my soap though! hahahaha i'm going to be nice smelling in a few (:

kind of quarreled with the boyfriend last night. on and off arguments these past few days, about some stuff. i think i blurted some stuff out to him last night, when i was half asleep.

quite a lot of stuff happened these past few days, and i have no idea where to start.

mentally exhausting, and it makes me feel as if it ain't christmas any more then an ordinary day.

went to vivo for christmas countdown, after spending some time with the relatives. these days i keep cabbing everywhere. oh no lah. that bad habit shall not start again (:

and! CYN MET ME! hahahahahaha after like what seemed like a thousand years, i finally met up with one of my favorite people in the world.

took photos of the guys, and hongguo and liangjie were all too ready to pose for the pictures. HAHA especially hg. act emo shit. (:

went back to the headquarters for these few days, which is liangjie's place and spent time sleeping all the way till now. HAHA. oh yeah i just got up to eat and sleep then eat and sleep and eat then sleep.

its as if i'm perpetually in some major pig mode. eat sleep eat sleep eat sleep.

boooooooooooooooo.

fatfatfatfatfat.

anyyyyyyyyyway, i forgot what i wanted to say.

handphone is out of commission, cause it's battery-less and i have no charger ):
i wannnnnnnnnna charge my phone and i want to bathe.

guess i;m going to take belated x'mas presents for everyone cause i have no money.

i'm going to bathe soon, but roy's going to bathe first cause someone special is coming over at eleven (:

and he's like totally "does this look good on me? does it look very dirty?" blabla. HAHAHAHAHA. funny shit.

(: alright off i go. i'm like, bored.

xoxo
i have a wonderful kind of love.

wildest kiss for love

"you're the one i'll need"

cussssss

currently attempting to play dota in a game that's me vs the computer.

it's a very exasperating game, in case anyone is wondering. never was a fan of games where you have to run around and destroy things.

i hate waiting to be respawned, and blablabla. overall it's still quite exciting lah. but i'm totally noobish at it, so. *shrugs*

big head told me to go learn how to play it. trying my best to, but still getting kinda bored at it, cause i kind of have a short attention span.

might be going swimming tomorrow at the sengkang swimming complex thingy? i'm not too sure if i'm swimming though. there's that issue of fats, and all you know you know you know?

i wanttobethin i wanttobethinnnnnnnnnn.

-..-

okay, so events lately.....

kinda forgot whatever that happened recently, because they kind of slip my mind quickly cause i can't quite be bothered to post up stuff and update anything.

well, there was the class chalet? where most of the people who stayed over the most didn't belong to charity.

well,,,,,,,,,, after a million years of attempting to play dota, i quit after two games.

and i was a leaver for both games. HAHA cause i kept getting scolded.

cannot lah just kept getting lost and i have no idea what the hell to buy for items and all that. wth lahszszxxzxzxzxzxz

bighead says he'll teach me some other time. he's some noobshit too i bet. HAHA no lah kidding (:::::: coughs*

i'm super dee duper bored.

ohmy.

went to watch "nick and norah's infinite playlist" a few days back. it was..... not bad. hee. funny and all, but was distracted by the uncomfortable seats. anyway, it's funny how the two of them just fell in love over the course of one night, from having nothing in common to talk about, seemingly, to having everything to talk about under the sun.

and norah is one cool chickydooo. -..- imagine being able to be let in for free and not having to even line up for anything. ain't that cool shit? haha

also watched "bolt". super cute show, about this dog who kinda played jim carrey's role in "the truman show" i have no idea whether i spelled some words correctly-..-

anyway, he was totally in the world of "bad guys want to kidnap penny, and i have to protect her!" kind of thing, but like in actual fact, penny's just an actress (voice of miley cyrus) and he's just in some weird show. poooooooor thing yo. but it's a happy ending all the same!

ah i love the holidays.

oooh. mum's birthday is tomorrow! 20th i mean. heeeeee. and so is 2nd month.

although there were some unhappy stuffs previously, i'm glad that everything is fine now. although it's just a short period of two months, it's kind of the happier months i've spent recently. (:

kinda missed that feeling of smiling from the bottom of my heart, and.....

i don't know why things would take a twist like that, but i'm glad it's this way. (:

alright enough of these stuff. goosebumps are already forming. brrrrrrrrrrrr.

anyyyyyways.

gie tagged me to do her quiz stuff, and so i will try, though that idiot's quiz thing can't cnp.

1st

According to your age, list down the number of things that most people don't know about you, and then tag five people.

1) i have a middle name
2) i think a lot
3) i like thinking
4) i don't feel like talking when i'm in a bad mood
5) but i still do anyway.
6) i don't listen to jay chou songs
7) but i still know how to sing most of them anyway
8) thanks to the people around me
9) i once loved 5566
10) i bang into stuff all the time
11) i have super strength (:
12) i am actually very feminine
13) i like hello kitty stuff
14) i like pink
15) i attempt DIY stuff
16) i like to sleep a lot
17) and finallyyyyy, there's finally something i really regret.

i'll tag everyone who saw this.

2nd

1) The person who tagged you is?
Angie

2) Your relationship with him/her?
Good friend (:

3) Your five impressions of him/her?
silly
funny
crappy
blur
super dumb sometimes (:

4) The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
Taking care of me when i'm sick in school.

5) The most memorable thing he/she said to you?
confessing her love for me. HAHA

6) If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
uh..... scream in fear?

7) If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on?
saying my name correctly the first time, instead of going "rebecca, eh cynthia, eh carmen,
eh jinjing, eh joh!" HAHA

8) If he/she becomes my enemy, you will?
this will never happen (:

9) If he/she dies, you will?
have a big party to celebrate! NO LAH CHOY. of course cry till i die.

10) What is it you want to tell him/her now?
I miss youuuuuuuuuuuuu!

11) Your overall impression of him/her?
stupid dumbdumb. (:

12) How do you think people around you will feel?
Huh?

13)The characters you love of yourself are?
too many to list down.HAHA

14)On the contrary, the characteristics you hate about yourself are?
lazy, can't be bothered, always late, selfish, blablabla.

15)The most ideal person you want to be is?
it would take days to list it out.

16) For the people who care and likes you, say something to them.
i'm always here for you. always and forever.

17) Pass this quiz to 10 people that you want to know how they feel about you.

cyn
angie
bec
big head
binghui
karen
boochuan
huibing
mabel
huiying

who is no.6 having a relationship with?
don't tell you.

is no. 9 a female or a male?
female

if no.7 and no.10 are together, will it be a good thing?
no ba?

what is no.2 studying all about?
NYP Business management

when was the last time you chatted with no.3?
a week ago? talked properly i meant.

what kind of music band does no.8 likes?
those band band one.

does no. 1 have any siblings?
yup. one sister.

will you woo no.3?
later sebastian kill me.

how about no. 7?
later her boyfriend kill me also.

is no.4 single?
no. he is attached. TO ME. HAHAHAHAHA.

what is the surname of no. 5?
tayyyyyy

what is the hobby of no. 10?
darren goh is her hobby (:

do no.5 and no. 9 get along?
don't think they know each other very well.

where is no. 2 studying at?
NYP.

talk about something for no.1!
she is my partner-in-crime and one of my bestest best friends (:

have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
nnooo . she's too unlovable. HAHA kidding

where does no.9 live in?
a hole lor. HAHA no lah hougang.

what color does no.4 likes?
sss zzzzzzz. don't tell you.

are no.1 and no.5 best friends?
nope. hahahaa

does no.1 have any pets?
an ex hamster in her cupboard. HAHA.

is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
that place is filled by kim jaejoong lah.

what is no.10 doing right now?
sleeping?

phew.

finally done. long shit post. bye.

xoxo

i love you, i swear it's true.

ps: i'm sorry i went. and i'm sorry i made you disappointed and angry and sad. i'll let you punch me if you can bear to. HAHA.

can someone kill me please?

i'm sorry baby. please don't let anything worse happen to my bighead )::::: x infinity.

thank you God.

color blind at a rainbows crossing

"you'll harden your heart like never before."

currently am at plaza, typing with a faulty keyboard while the rest play dota.

again.

oh welllll.

oh yeah and i'm kind of in a comtemplative(sp?) kind of mood now, but it's kind of ruined cause of a very irritated feeling i'm having against my falsies. like what the fuck can't they stick on properly once and for all without threatening to drop off and can my eyes STOP tearing? -..-

GOD.

anyway, i think humans are all weird and selfish creatures. you cling on to someone, firmly declaring your love and never ending whatevers, till you get your fill of the chemicals that make up "love" and then you leave.

and sometimes you don't have a better reason for leaving, and so you hide and declare, never pausing to care how it might affect the other person in the relationship, that that's the end.

but is the stand you originally have, good enough to take the fall in place of her heart? it's true that it doesn't really matter what you say, simply because you're not the one left to pick up the pieces, like always and forever.

sometimes life is fair, and it gives retribution to those who deserve it. but what of those who don't deserve it? to have tears in their eyes, perhaps asking,why them, why him, and why her.

but all they have to fall back on are reasons that further pull holes into the thin fabric of something resembling a bullet ridden cloth. if saying, "cause i was weak," or "cause i found out differently," or something else could further cover the hurt that would fall, then perhaps it should be said. but honestly it really shows the fact that you could have done better/tried harder/gone further. it never should end this way.

and now it makes me scared. as nelly furtado goes, "why do all good things come to an end?" and do they?

i mean. once certain things are said, or done, it's hard to do things like that. perhaps if what your vision of a perfect relationship was wearing you out, then shouldn't you change it instead of heading the easy way out?

OH PIKACHU'S BACK. -..- from hongkong. welcome (::::: he said he got me something that will make me more feminine. LIKE HELLLO?! I AM ALREADY SUPER FEMININE CAN!?. anyway he walked into plaza so ya.

anyway, i lost my train of thought. thanks.-..- HAHA.

soiguess i'll continue some other time.

classchalet tomorrow, and i hope everything will go smoothly and well. (:

off. ta fuckers (:



xoxo
but you'll never see her cry

ps: what ever may be, i'll stand by you. like always, and like forever.