feel the urge to blog after reading a blog.
there's this guy who passed away from cancer. and after reading his blog, i really want to tear up. he was damn brave, and all of his friends stood by him. i think he's around my age or slightly older? seriously though i didn't know him it still made an impact.
simply made other things fade in importance as i stared at the blog, his pictures. life's short. treasure it. but who will?
it's always moving on with life, rushing here and there, letting the days pass without any thought.
it's true that as compared to losing someone forever, somethings just pale in comparison.
talked on the phone with Hs just now. thanks for listening cause i think i'd just go crazy at that moment. same goes for each and every one of you lovelies out there who listened to me, worried for me, got angry for me, and most of all, stood by me. seriously i wouldn't know what i'll do without each and every one of you. you know who you are.
xoxo
ps: so was i just a substitute? or did i remind you of her? i know i'm not thinking too much and i know it shouldn't matter. it's just that i've never felt as important as any one of your previous girlfriends, and now i'm one of them too. i need answers, but i can't get them. i.. i don't want you to move on. but that's not anything i have control over. i don't have anything to make you turn around, nothing at all. pathetic.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
you are a disgusting and smelly person
joke of the year!!!!!!!
*
Theodore says (3:25 PM):
*i make it short and sweet
*me and my gf has nothing to do with u
*i have not been talking ur msgung u or wad so ever
Johanna says (3:25 PM):
*hahaha oh wow
Theodore says (3:25 PM):
*so just stay out of our lives
*thanks
Johanna says (3:25 PM):
*then why tell your girlfriend
Johanna said (3:25 PM):
*that i'm interested in you?
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*oh and 1 more thing
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*why tell her all those shit
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*if u get the thrill inb logging
*blogging*
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*hahahahah
*pls
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*and wadeva so eva
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*stop going offline before i can say anything
*you're the one
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*u can continue
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*haha why?
*you;re gonna threaten me?
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*nah
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*you're the one who dragged me into all these shit
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*i said u can continue
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*remember
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*means do wad u wantr
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*hahaha i dont need your perimission
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*cos honestly we dont really care anymore
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*and you're the one
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*so yea
*thats good
*u got proof?
*no:)
i have no proof? neither do you. but what i have is the truth.
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*ohhhh yea!
*1 more thing
Johanna says (3:29 PM):
*hahahah why not say everything out in one
*shot
*or better yet
*call me
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*stop harassing my gf or me
Johanna says (3:29 PM):
*hahaha ME?!?!
*HARRASS YOUR GIRLFRIEND?
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*nah i told her i blocked u
*call her just now blah blah blah
Johanna says (3:29 PM):
*LOL which you did you dog
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*i harass u?
*haha!
Johanna says (3:29 PM):
*?? hahaha you are a very funny dog
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*ohsss man.. ah lians kinda uneducated
Johanna says (3:29 PM):
*since when did i say you harrassed me? dont put words up in my miuth dog
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*wad can i say
Johanna says (3:29 PM):
*hahaha
*ah lians?
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*only knows dog
Johanna says (3:29 PM):
*i have more intelligence than you
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*oh wells thats all
*haha
Johanna says (3:30 PM):
*oh what? you'r gonna tell me not to fuck iwith you?
Theodore says (3:30 PM):
*no wonder u droppped out
*smarty pants
*hahaha
hahaha seriously he's a joke. what you trying to act for theodore? yeah i enjoy blogging. i didn't harass your girlfriend, get that fucking story straight.
stop trying to turn the whole thing around, trying to save whatever, and even coming round to insult my intelligence? i think it's obvious who's the most intelligent one eh? the one who keeps lying and FAILS to keep everything from getting revealed? or the one who found out about the lies and exposed you. oh yeah if you're going on with the personal attacks now then i suppose i can get one in too huh, mister 'big'?
well theodore, i wasn't the one who went around saying that someone else is interested in me, wasn't the one who said things like 'oh i grinded xxxxxx' 'i touched xxxxx' blablabla.
YOU were the one who dragged ME into it, telling your precious girlfriend all about how i came to talk to you, telling you stuff about my ex-boyfriend, hinting that i liked you? (FYI IT DIDN'T HAPPEN!) LOL please lah ask whoever believes you and i think your girlfriend might be the only one.
and about the harassing part, that's a big laugh. i wonder who was the one who contacted me, blablablablabla. yeah i told her everything you told me. everything.
yeah one thing that you got right, it's non of my business, whatever goes on in your relationship, but YOU brought MY NAME into it, and that resulted in people calling me up and asking me about YOU. you made me out to be a third party, even going so far as to say that i'm desperate? lol! sorry, even if i'm desperate i don't think i will go for you. i deserve a chance to clear my name, and that's what i did and what i am doing now. your girlfriend knows about everything, and she will judge for herself who she wants to believe.
and about the harassing part, that's a big laugh. i wonder who was the one who contacted me, the one who talked to me on msn about all that shit about your relationship, the one who texted me. shouldn't it be the other way round if i were harassing you?!
nice move huh, blocking me then coming back and saying 'oh ya 1 more thing'. shove that one more thing up your ass please i'm not interested.
oh ya 1 more thing. the only reason why i'm blogging this, is so i can get a decent response over to you. it's not for anyone else to read cause frankly i don't give a shit if other people believe me or not, cause i know i didn't do anything wrong. and i know you'll be reading this no matter how many times you say that 'you don't care' -.-
hold on i'm almost done here. like you said, it's non of my business. the only reason why i'm blogging is because i feel damn pissed off over getting bawled out at by YOU the fucker who started this shit in the first place. i've nothing to lose if your girlfriend doesn't trust me, after all, who the fuck are you in my life? nobody. but on the other hand, you, have a lot to lose. cause i think you'll be losing one of the only people who really like you and care for you. wonder why though.
LOL and it's funny how you kept trying to cut me off and going 'block, unblock, block, unblock' why? you tell your girlfriend you block me so that i can't 'harass' you anymore ah? can't believe you told her that 'maybe she wanted to save her pride' after she saw my reply when she talked to me posing as you.
she knows the truth la. it's just easier to believe in you. girls aren't that dumb. but some girls really can't bear to do the right thing for themselves because they put too much love into people that don't deserve it at all. so, treasure her. you probably don't have many non-blood related people who really care.
wha this is damn long. don't disturb me already la okay. blogging about you doesn't mean i want to save my face or that i'm bitter cause 'i got rejected' okay? get that into your fucking mind. i don't need to lie that much to people whom i don't even know.
plus, i don't do lying. that's one of the many many reasons why i have so many people who love me, friends and family alike. and i dare say they do. HAHA!
kbye.
*
Theodore says (3:25 PM):
*i make it short and sweet
*me and my gf has nothing to do with u
*i have not been talking ur msgung u or wad so ever
Johanna says (3:25 PM):
*hahaha oh wow
Theodore says (3:25 PM):
*so just stay out of our lives
*thanks
Johanna says (3:25 PM):
*then why tell your girlfriend
Johanna said (3:25 PM):
*that i'm interested in you?
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*oh and 1 more thing
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*why tell her all those shit
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*if u get the thrill inb logging
*blogging*
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*hahahahah
*pls
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*and wadeva so eva
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*stop going offline before i can say anything
*you're the one
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*u can continue
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*haha why?
*you;re gonna threaten me?
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*nah
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*you're the one who dragged me into all these shit
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*i said u can continue
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*remember
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*means do wad u wantr
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*hahaha i dont need your perimission
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*cos honestly we dont really care anymore
Johanna says (3:26 PM):
*and you're the one
Theodore says (3:26 PM):
*so yea
*thats good
*u got proof?
*no:)
i have no proof? neither do you. but what i have is the truth.
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*ohhhh yea!
*1 more thing
Johanna says (3:29 PM):
*hahahah why not say everything out in one
*shot
*or better yet
*call me
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*stop harassing my gf or me
Johanna says (3:29 PM):
*hahaha ME?!?!
*HARRASS YOUR GIRLFRIEND?
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*nah i told her i blocked u
*call her just now blah blah blah
Johanna says (3:29 PM):
*LOL which you did you dog
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*i harass u?
*haha!
Johanna says (3:29 PM):
*?? hahaha you are a very funny dog
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*ohsss man.. ah lians kinda uneducated
Johanna says (3:29 PM):
*since when did i say you harrassed me? dont put words up in my miuth dog
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*wad can i say
Johanna says (3:29 PM):
*hahaha
*ah lians?
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*only knows dog
Johanna says (3:29 PM):
*i have more intelligence than you
Theodore says (3:29 PM):
*oh wells thats all
*haha
Johanna says (3:30 PM):
*oh what? you'r gonna tell me not to fuck iwith you?
Theodore says (3:30 PM):
*no wonder u droppped out
*smarty pants
*hahaha
hahaha seriously he's a joke. what you trying to act for theodore? yeah i enjoy blogging. i didn't harass your girlfriend, get that fucking story straight.
stop trying to turn the whole thing around, trying to save whatever, and even coming round to insult my intelligence? i think it's obvious who's the most intelligent one eh? the one who keeps lying and FAILS to keep everything from getting revealed? or the one who found out about the lies and exposed you. oh yeah if you're going on with the personal attacks now then i suppose i can get one in too huh, mister 'big'?
well theodore, i wasn't the one who went around saying that someone else is interested in me, wasn't the one who said things like 'oh i grinded xxxxxx' 'i touched xxxxx' blablabla.
YOU were the one who dragged ME into it, telling your precious girlfriend all about how i came to talk to you, telling you stuff about my ex-boyfriend, hinting that i liked you? (FYI IT DIDN'T HAPPEN!) LOL please lah ask whoever believes you and i think your girlfriend might be the only one.
and about the harassing part, that's a big laugh. i wonder who was the one who contacted me, blablablablabla. yeah i told her everything you told me. everything.
yeah one thing that you got right, it's non of my business, whatever goes on in your relationship, but YOU brought MY NAME into it, and that resulted in people calling me up and asking me about YOU. you made me out to be a third party, even going so far as to say that i'm desperate? lol! sorry, even if i'm desperate i don't think i will go for you. i deserve a chance to clear my name, and that's what i did and what i am doing now. your girlfriend knows about everything, and she will judge for herself who she wants to believe.
and about the harassing part, that's a big laugh. i wonder who was the one who contacted me, the one who talked to me on msn about all that shit about your relationship, the one who texted me. shouldn't it be the other way round if i were harassing you?!
nice move huh, blocking me then coming back and saying 'oh ya 1 more thing'. shove that one more thing up your ass please i'm not interested.
oh ya 1 more thing. the only reason why i'm blogging this, is so i can get a decent response over to you. it's not for anyone else to read cause frankly i don't give a shit if other people believe me or not, cause i know i didn't do anything wrong. and i know you'll be reading this no matter how many times you say that 'you don't care' -.-
hold on i'm almost done here. like you said, it's non of my business. the only reason why i'm blogging is because i feel damn pissed off over getting bawled out at by YOU the fucker who started this shit in the first place. i've nothing to lose if your girlfriend doesn't trust me, after all, who the fuck are you in my life? nobody. but on the other hand, you, have a lot to lose. cause i think you'll be losing one of the only people who really like you and care for you. wonder why though.
LOL and it's funny how you kept trying to cut me off and going 'block, unblock, block, unblock' why? you tell your girlfriend you block me so that i can't 'harass' you anymore ah? can't believe you told her that 'maybe she wanted to save her pride' after she saw my reply when she talked to me posing as you.
she knows the truth la. it's just easier to believe in you. girls aren't that dumb. but some girls really can't bear to do the right thing for themselves because they put too much love into people that don't deserve it at all. so, treasure her. you probably don't have many non-blood related people who really care.
wha this is damn long. don't disturb me already la okay. blogging about you doesn't mean i want to save my face or that i'm bitter cause 'i got rejected' okay? get that into your fucking mind. i don't need to lie that much to people whom i don't even know.
plus, i don't do lying. that's one of the many many reasons why i have so many people who love me, friends and family alike. and i dare say they do. HAHA!
kbye.
specially for someone and his girlfriend
hi, something i wanna clarify. to whom it may concern: i have no interest in your boyfriend, never had any, will NEVER have any interest. read the font on this space: I HAVE NEVER HAD ANY INTEREST IN SPEAKING TO YOUR BOYFRIEND, WILL NEVER EVEN WANT TO CROSS ANY LINES WITH HIM BLABLABLABLABLA. read my flapping lips: I HAVE NO INTEREST IN YOUR BOYFRIEND.
what the fuck i tell you, it's fucking absurd how all these lies can spring up out of nowhere. okay, maybe out of exactly nowhere, but it's damn ridiculous how such weird notions can even be conceived. like hello?!?!?! who are you exactly?????
don't tell your girlfriend that i initiated any conversation with you. don't tell your girlfriend i'm trying to hint that i like you. don't even think of telling your girlfriend that i'm interested in you, but OH LOOK. you so totally did. LIAR.
seriously i swear, i totally laughed in disbelief when i heard about it. then it turned to major pissed-off mode, cause seriously it's an insult to even be thought of that way. and plus whatever goes on in your relationship is YOUR problem. don't keep dragging other innocent people into it. i don't even know what you're trying to prove: that you're a stud? manly? what exactly?
doing shit to your girlfriend, feeding her all these lies? why? scared that she'll see you for what you truly are? which is a SHALLOW, LYING, MANIPULATIVE, COWARDLY DOG? the reason why i used the word dog, was so that you'd know who i was talking about for sure.
the reason why i even responded to your texts or instant messages were cause i thought you were an okay person. but i should've known you were another fucked up shithole judging from what you told me the hours after that night. (hahahaha you're so dead if your girlfriend sees this! sucker.) oh ya, and the dota thing? i only played with you cause i needed someone to teach me thoroughly. hahahah hell yeah i'm shallow like that.
stop telling her disgusting stuff too. omg and stop acting all 'i'm holier than thou' with all that 'i believe love comes before sex'. i know all about you and your little lies.
stop saying your girlfriend is crazy and just brushing it off. you have no idea how much i wanted to call you up and fuck you upside down (not literally please God no!) for even bringing me into this shit. you think i didn't suspect that you were the one who 'introduced' your girlfriend to my existence? fuck, fancy telling her that i like you?!?!?!?! damn disgusting to the maximum level!
oh yeah, if _______'s girlfriend is reading this, feel free to contact me to clear up any of your doubts and misgivings. i'll gladly answer any of your queries. delicatelikethunder@hotmail.com, you can add me on msn, or email me, or ask mutual friends for my number.
oh ya. _______ if you are angry at this, remember; i don't give a fuck if you are. the angrier you are, the better. cause remember, i'm pissed off too. and we both know who's telling the truth.
i know you read my blog. tag on my board. i dare you.
sincerely,
Johanna
ps: what a nice way to end a day of extreme boredom. [:>
what the fuck i tell you, it's fucking absurd how all these lies can spring up out of nowhere. okay, maybe out of exactly nowhere, but it's damn ridiculous how such weird notions can even be conceived. like hello?!?!?! who are you exactly?????
don't tell your girlfriend that i initiated any conversation with you. don't tell your girlfriend i'm trying to hint that i like you. don't even think of telling your girlfriend that i'm interested in you, but OH LOOK. you so totally did. LIAR.
seriously i swear, i totally laughed in disbelief when i heard about it. then it turned to major pissed-off mode, cause seriously it's an insult to even be thought of that way. and plus whatever goes on in your relationship is YOUR problem. don't keep dragging other innocent people into it. i don't even know what you're trying to prove: that you're a stud? manly? what exactly?
doing shit to your girlfriend, feeding her all these lies? why? scared that she'll see you for what you truly are? which is a SHALLOW, LYING, MANIPULATIVE, COWARDLY DOG? the reason why i used the word dog, was so that you'd know who i was talking about for sure.
the reason why i even responded to your texts or instant messages were cause i thought you were an okay person. but i should've known you were another fucked up shithole judging from what you told me the hours after that night. (hahahaha you're so dead if your girlfriend sees this! sucker.) oh ya, and the dota thing? i only played with you cause i needed someone to teach me thoroughly. hahahah hell yeah i'm shallow like that.
stop telling her disgusting stuff too. omg and stop acting all 'i'm holier than thou' with all that 'i believe love comes before sex'. i know all about you and your little lies.
stop saying your girlfriend is crazy and just brushing it off. you have no idea how much i wanted to call you up and fuck you upside down (not literally please God no!) for even bringing me into this shit. you think i didn't suspect that you were the one who 'introduced' your girlfriend to my existence? fuck, fancy telling her that i like you?!?!?!?! damn disgusting to the maximum level!
oh yeah, if _______'s girlfriend is reading this, feel free to contact me to clear up any of your doubts and misgivings. i'll gladly answer any of your queries. delicatelikethunder@hotmail.com, you can add me on msn, or email me, or ask mutual friends for my number.
oh ya. _______ if you are angry at this, remember; i don't give a fuck if you are. the angrier you are, the better. cause remember, i'm pissed off too. and we both know who's telling the truth.
i know you read my blog. tag on my board. i dare you.
sincerely,
Johanna
ps: what a nice way to end a day of extreme boredom. [:>
Monday, September 28, 2009
i am fucking fucking bored. stuck at home..... watching whatever's on tvee and caught 'The Nanny', 'F.r.i.e.n.d.s', and currently re-watching the MTV VMA's.
i'm really effing bored. thank God for the internet, else i'd be bored out of my skulllllllll. okay but i actually have so much to do, finish sewing projects, STUDYYYYYYYY, clean up my room etc etc etc etc etc.
i wannnnnna get braces. and long hair, and mani/pedi (thurs with Hs), new clothes, slimmmmmm, and blablablablabla.
kept on eating yesterday and today. fucking bored, i guess the urge to eat sprang up cause i'm totally bored.
want to learn how to shuffle too. been trying to say that foreverrrrrr. and i want an itouch! sad face * and a blackberry.
maybe i will go download new songs and bla. wish i had a webcam laptop thingy. oh ya i want a new laptop too.
k cheers, off to find something to do! dota maybe? plus it's effing hot i swear.
xoxo
too good to be true
ps: i don't know how to stop wanting you.
"you're safe in my heart."
met up with Whb and Huishan today! we went to Bugis for my fake eyelashes and Hs bought shorts that can't be too short, and Whb and i bought same tops. but seriously i regretttttttttt! though it's super cheap it looks weird. >.>
oh well. shall try to make it work somehow.
mooncake hunting, then back to Hougang for lantern hunting -..-
i ate four meals today. FOUR. bloody fattening i swear. i don't know what's wrong with me keep eating and eating and eating and eating. omg. just couldn't feel full? first meal was mee soto at home > second was LongJohn > third was this random beehoon thing > and fourth was dinner at home.
wtf i miss homecooked food seriously. haven't had it in ages. the only other place i used to eat homecooked food was at A's place or his grandmother's. damn nice the food i swearrrrrrrrr. simple and nice though i can't imagine cooking everyday like that.
damn wei da lor mothers and fathers, imagine the washing up! @$*@&%(&@$ turn off already lor. lol!
damn sleepy! but i feel like dota-ing. haven't touched it for quite long already, last game being Saturday? hurhurrrr.
shall go to bed. movie with long bean tomorrow! LOL. photos up soonly.
xoxo
times all the memories
ps: i understand.
met up with Whb and Huishan today! we went to Bugis for my fake eyelashes and Hs bought shorts that can't be too short, and Whb and i bought same tops. but seriously i regretttttttttt! though it's super cheap it looks weird. >.>
oh well. shall try to make it work somehow.
mooncake hunting, then back to Hougang for lantern hunting -..-
i ate four meals today. FOUR. bloody fattening i swear. i don't know what's wrong with me keep eating and eating and eating and eating. omg. just couldn't feel full? first meal was mee soto at home > second was LongJohn > third was this random beehoon thing > and fourth was dinner at home.
wtf i miss homecooked food seriously. haven't had it in ages. the only other place i used to eat homecooked food was at A's place or his grandmother's. damn nice the food i swearrrrrrrrr. simple and nice though i can't imagine cooking everyday like that.
damn wei da lor mothers and fathers, imagine the washing up! @$*@&%(&@$ turn off already lor. lol!
damn sleepy! but i feel like dota-ing. haven't touched it for quite long already, last game being Saturday? hurhurrrr.
shall go to bed. movie with long bean tomorrow! LOL. photos up soonly.
xoxo
times all the memories
ps: i understand.
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