taking us back

"cause i've reached the end of my tether; the straw that broke the camel's back."

made use of the free time during Maple patch to do some editing and blogging.

still at Liangjie's, and the others are holdem'ing.

thinking of..... but yeah. sometimes you're really able to see the importance of yourself when it comes down to it, or perhaps it takes nothing at all, and it was staring at you right in the face, but just..... you refuse to take accept it, and now you've to make a decision, if you're still going to go along with it.

or perhaps sometimes it's too much, to be taken too lightly, too much. and when that person you're dealing with is the person that wields power over your heart, you find yourself powerless yet again.

fuck it yet again, still.

dad cut off my phone line again. sick of it. again with the expectations, i just wanna fucking enjoy myself, before the 29th. couldn't control myself and out a 'fuck!' came before i hung up on him.

filial piece of shit i am huh.

just making use of this space to rant, to say the things he'll never see, to let out the things i'll never tell him, cause it's just too difficult. my heart ain't indestructible. i swear.

and i don't think being nice pays off at all. sometimes, or rather most of the time, it seems like putting yourself all out there just ends up with a consequence of..... some not very good things.

hah.

alright just leave it. nothing to be done for now. 20th..... survival rate? HA.

photos:

some random day at Plaza.





some random shot.



K-garden the other day.





they just love it



him, especially.







star of the night, meet my bff!





Mingkang testing out his new career.



this super nice taxi driver named 'Eetong', after the mahjong tile. (owner of the cab Mingkang attempted to drive. he took us around the carpark, when we couldn't decide where to go; seven sitter, eleven/twelve people. how?! and he was like 'ohhhh! zhou looooo!' and proceeded to drive around the carpark. then Liangjie pretended to hail the cab from the other side, then he slowed down and 'ehhh zhe me qiao ah?!" or something like that. HA nice luh, and they even went to smoke together.



alright, end of photos, more in my phone. shall post some other time.


xoxo
to much to run from, nowhere to hide.

ps: i can't feel anything anymore. perhaps. but it's the weary heart that shields itself time and time again.