such a pain indeed, but i'm not even supposed to feel this way. cause i know i'm in a relationship and thus, shouldn't be out gallivanting around with other people at the middle of the night as and when i please, but damn it, the saggitarian in me acting up real bad.
i mean, i just want to have fun; like before. be it pubbing, clubbing, stayovers, hanging around with different people, spending time with friends, meeting new people. blahblahblahblahblah. somehow i feel so d4mned restricted, but this is what comes with a r/s, i understand that.
told him once, 'perhaps it's cause i'm more of the type who's meant to be single.' i really just wanna enjoy my life, to the fullest. the max times ten. but i know it's terribly unfair to want Bb to let me do the things i want, because it's not possible that i'll feel even the least bit comfortable with him in these kind of places, without me. not comfortable at all.
ah don't know what's the point. and people keep saying i think too much, but it seems like nobody gets the point that i don't think a lot on purpose, and it just flashes to my mind without any prior notice whatsoever?????? sumpaaaaaa i don't sit down and think like "hmmm..... xxxxxxx"and all. it just comes like that.
oh meet my lovely Bb, aint he handsome? :D LOL
my right eye hurts m-fuckingly bad right now. no feel to blog already. bye bye.
xoxo
heartbeat.
ps:no matter what, darling.
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