thinking of that very last ________ xx

"so what are you, what are you, shades of blue black and grey."





contemplative mood, and once again i find myself in an absurd place at a time where i could be sleeping or something.><>

and it's 3.13am, and i'm supposed to play for another 2 and a half or so hours. GAHHHHH! oh well.

so how was my day spent? with Bb at his place, till late and dinner with his family at plaza. i'm amazed by my appetite! ate a whole moutain of rice today, and the guy asked me "na ge ji ge ren chi de?" (asking how many people will eat what i ordered). and i said "yi ge!" (one [me]). and he gave me an unsure look, and said 'ni chi de wan ma?' (can you finish it?)

B's mum gave a "o.O" look when i sat down with the plate. and she expressed some 'wahhhhness' when i finished it -..-

so yeahhhhhhhh..........

needa pee kinda badly, but i'm afraid to! did i mention the movie after at Amk Hub with Darren, Mabel, Roy and Wendy? oh ya don't think so. we watched 'Drag Me to Hell' wha i think i only watched around 1/4 of the movie.

d4mn scary! okay maybe not, but it's full of those sudden outbursts, and gruesome faces and lots of gory details. spent the movie burying my head into B's shoulder. could feel him suddenly cua-sai-ing and jumping up, or getting startled.

oh yeah and i think the director might be a little hard of hearing, cause the sound effects ARE SUPER LOUD. like reallllllyyyyy loud. -..-

hmmmmm. and lately i've been thinking, about friends and stuff. and i thank God for that auto-mechanism thing that makes me edge away from that person if he/she's not very nice. and i don't take in good friends so easily anymore.

i don't know why eh, but that's just how i've become. though the ones that are dear are stillllll dear. no matter what, and how circumstances go.

guess it's just me that's grown more wary, still keeping a distance, so i won't fall unless i want to.

makes sense, no?

cause sometimes it's really mixed, the vibes i get. think what you want, i won't say anything more on this space.

anyway, i really need to pee, but the lanshop's toilet has a 99% probability of being fucking dirty. ( i mean HELLO?! i think i'm the only female here and guys can pee standing up, and most of the time, NOT-VERY-ACCURATELY.!) and stupid A doesn't wanna go with me to the petrol stations, and i'm too much of a coward to go there alone. one of the worst places to go to after a scary movie can!

i keep staring at the toilet longinglyyyyyyyyyy. oh gosh.

shall attempt to peek in it. and shall end this blog post. !

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DADDY DEAREST! I LUV YOUUUU MUCH, THOUGH WE'RE NOT REALLY TALKING ))))):

and Happy 8months Bb!

xoxo

what you really want, odds are you can't have.