stripped down, cold.

love, my world is crumbling, crumbling. and i'll have to build it back up, piece by piece. mending, mending.

to be strong, love, you told me to. it's hard.

time to grow up. to love is to be vulnerable. vulnerability should wear off soon, it must. it must.

can't have it any other way.

it's the in-between part that kills. kills so bad.

and yet it's that part that makes you stronger. and i will be. i swear to God, so help me, i will be.

this should be healthy. a healthy kind.



and lo and behold, my first real heartbreak.



xoxo,
i love you too, so much, so much.

ps: i doubt you'd ever get to read this, but if you do..... 24/7. always, always.


edited:

played a game, asked God what we would be like in a months time, and this song came up.

Ooh uh ooh,ooh uh ooh yeih yeh
You understand me
At least you say you do
Lately thats enough for me
Looking for perfect
Surrounded by artificial
You're the closest thing to real i've seen
Sure, everyone has their problems
Thats a given
Yours are the easiest to tolerate
This wasn't what we was wanting
How we're living
But let's take this good enough and turn it to great
Baby understand...

This can only be as good as we both make it
Guess sometimes its gonna hurt (yes sometimes its gonna hurt)
We can be as happy as we want to be girl
But we gotta make it work
We gotta make it work...

Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh

Sometimes i love you
More than you'll ever know
Other times you get on my nerves (hey)
That's just reality
No, it can't always be
Kisses, hugs, and beautiful words

You was looking for your prince,ooh
What you found (wat u found)

Is a pauper with potential
And no, i'm nowhere near perfect..NO
But i'm around (but im around)
Girl, time and patience is essential
Baby realize...

This can only be as good as we both make it
Guess sometimes its gonna hurt (guess sometimes its gonna hurt)
We can be as happy as we want to be girl
But we gotta make it work
We gotta make it work...

Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh

Thick and thin, (ooh)
The bad outweighs the good sometimes
That doesn't mean we're 'spose to give it up
My problems are yours,and yours are mine

This can only be as good as we both make it
Guess sometimes its gonna hurt (guess sometimes its gonna hurt)
We can be as happy as we want to be girl
But we gotta make it work
We gotta make it work...

Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh



that could be our song. our fucking song.

make it work? i wish we could. so fucking much.