"kisses, bitter, sour, sweet."
home makes me feel at home. it makes me feel alone. it makes me feel like .....
many many things have happened recently, and i realized quite a number of things. for one, i really don't think properly.
it's always the 'why didn't you think of it before?' thing that strikes you after everything is said and done. doesn't take away the kind of regret and that lingering notion of 'things will be different if.....'
and i'll get through this, i know i will. it's just the time that i need. no matter how things work out, i've got to change. funny how i can't follow my damned advice, huh?
but today was really one of the worst days of all. i hope i never have to go through that feeling again, or see that situation happening ever again, please.
one month, one month. four weeks, four weeks, thirty one days, thirty one days.
erased everything that i typed below;
bec told me some stuff that taught me how to look properly at things from his viewpoint, and from a general stand, and i understand now.
now's the time for the doing, and i have to cultivate that kind of willpower to do it, and yes i can.
alright, super sleepy; i hope i won't be awakened by anything/anyone other than him.
three hours in almost two days; i need some pills soon.
weewee, you're loved too.
xoxo
and between now and then,
till i see you again,
i'll be loving you.
love, me.
ps: i miss us.
pps: i wish i could just..... __________________________________ xxxxxxxxxxx.
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